Something is shifting yet again. I can feel it. It has been a week of feeling stuck, restless, lost, exhausted and disconnected.
The confusing part is that it has also been a week of feeling inspired, powerful, independent and connected.
There has been a symphony of emotions. The ups and downs I remember from past times when life seemed unsteady and I just wasn't sure what was around the next corner.
The last time I felt big waves of these feelings, that are appearing in only glimpses now, I felt like the only way to get control back was to shave my head.
In a time where there were so many areas that I had no control over I took back my power in the only area I had complete control over.
Of course this was a very different time. This was during 5 rounds of IVF. This was when I was trying to fall pregnant and was being poked and prodded. When I felt like everything was against me; not only holding onto this dream of being a mother but more importantly in achieving it.
Now is not such a dramatic or emotionally crippling time. However, there are a few areas I have no control over and I feel powerless to change. This time I am claiming my power back by visiting the hairdresser again.
The plan is not to shave it all off this time but to allow myself to stand out and stop being the meek wallflower I feel like I have become in many ways. To allow the fireiness of my hair to stand up and scream. To stand strong and not stand for the injustices and conformity society demands.
There has come a time for me to step out of the shadows again, as I have done in the past, after the healing was over. To call my own shots and no longer allow others to have all of the control over MY destiny.
How do you find your strength to get up after you have been knocked down? Would love to hear your techniques in the comments section.
Until next time.
Blessings and love,
Narelle Hudson xx
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